Hello Foggy Mind.
So : You have searched the web for a cure, and accidentally found this Page.
The Goggle Traps.
Dementia. – Words, to draw them in.
Well, here goes, there ain’t no cure for Alzheimer’s, but that doesn’t mean you can’t beat it.
– And change.
In 2007 : I was suffering from the fog, and the thick plasticine head that went with it. I couldn’t focus on what I was doing. Telling you what I did the following day, well it was out of the question.
– As for asking me what I was doing one hour ago? – Forget it.
I : No doubt like you, was hiding it. I didn’t want to admit I had a problem, and I was damned if I was going to go to the Doctor with my Symptoms.
I knew it was bad, and knew it would get worse, but I wasn’t prepared to accept that : So I dug! – I looked, like you are doing now. Unfortunately, I came to the conclusion, that I was screwed.
– And the depressing truth is, there is no cure.
I knew that I was doomed to become a vegetable, dribbling down my chin in a nursing home. Shitting in a nappy, and then being slapped around the head for being. ‘A Bad Girl!’ : By an arse-hole nursing assistant. Who didn’t care what I was, nor what I had been in my life.
– There must be more to it than this.
One depressing fact came through in my research.
And it’s this: No one will stand beside you. If : And when, you admit to your friends that you have a mental problem, they will run a mile.
– Say the word Alzheimer’s!
And you’ll discover very fast : that you never had any friends in the first place. It’s a funny old world we live in.
No-one wants to care for the mentally ill, or even be near them.
– It seems, that; that’s a problem for the State.
– Move over Jack : Mines a pint, and it’s your Round.
– You’re screwed, and you are on your own!
*BUT!* – That’s not to say, you can’t get through it.
There are supplement’s that can help. Regardless of what the Medical Establishment says. The reason is simple, they can’t be seen to support one product over another.
– So they don’t support any!
It has come to the point, that their advice is : ‘all supplements don’t work.’
– My take on this is : ( They Do! )
Omega 3 seems to help, as does B+: and any blood conditioning supplements.
So years ago, I began to take them on a daily basis, and the pill combinations I took increased. As did my mental capacity.
– I now take everyday:
Omega 3 : (vegetable, long chain blend) Not Fish.
Vitamin B complex (sometimes called B+).
Also – Sea Kelp Tablets.
All these compounds work on thinning the blood, and are good for the most common form of confusion; called Vascular Dementia. They indirectly increase the blood supply to the brain, but that was only half of it.
– There’s more you need to do.
In those halcyon (hal·cy·on) days : I couldn’t think clearly, but my plasticine mind could still re-call music : I remembered the words to the songs I loved, and sung in the seventies.
In 2007, for no reason; I began writing that damnable book that had been swirling around in my mind for years.
– Like my music, it was burning clearly there.
– You will, also; have something burning brightly in your mind.
After just two months of taking the pills, and writing that book at six every morning; something began to happen. I changed, trouble is : I didn’t notice it at first.
Some background on my other problem: Prior to this time I wasn’t sleeping. In fact I hadn’t been sleeping well for about seven years.
– Insomnia is a Bitch.
I was told there is no real cure, and only a course of Pills could break the wake in the night, sleep in the day cycle
Finally thinking clearly, and being fed up with being a victim. I realised that I didn’t believe it. Taking my own problem in hand, I began to research this condition, and literally threw myself into it.
– I dug into the dark depths of the caustic underbelly of the web.
I read about every wacky theory going : then considered them all on their merits. I considered Yoga, but it seemed far to strenuous. Tai-Che looked interesting, and quite cool, but the commitment to it, was too demanding. It was the same with any physical activity. LEDS strapped to the head looked interesting, as did CD’s and tracks laid down from Whale music. Recorded Sea-Lion growling was a step too far, as was covering your head in refined err’ : (shit) – Seems that Human is best! – YUK!
Remember, at that time in my life : I was doomed with the fog, and in my mind. I was writing my final chapter. So I didn’t care to engage into anything, that involved a learning curve; that went on longer than three hours.
I trawled the web for a week, and after that time; I finally built up a real concrete Profile : of what Insomnia really was. – The general concept of not sleeping, was attributed to concerns in one’s life : And they were impeding your ability to shut down, (basically sleep at night).
A form of cogitative therapy, and a regime of pill use was advised. It also said, that to break the cycle of waking in the middle of the night: You really had to subscribe to Medical Intervention, and actively; seek Professional help.
– With it, you can make a change in your lifestyle.
My initial re-search, suggested not to drink stimulants. Nor try to sleep on a full stomach. It also came out with the usual nonsense of eating sensibly, and taking regular exercise. – Yer! – Like that was going to happen. I hadn’t been taking exercise for years.
– I was damned if I could find time to do it.
One thing I did get from my research, was the word ‘change’.
– It became my Mantra.
– And I literally, changed; over night.
Day one.) I didn’t drink coffee or tea after ten in the morning. I only ate plain food, no spices, and no meat. I didn’t eat anything after eight in the evening. I also didn’t drink any alcohol. That, after a time; became the hardest habit to break
– I still drink, but now only at the weekends.
Because I also suffer from gastric Reflux : I also took a good mouth-full of an antacid when I went to bed. It took it as preventative, and not a remedy in the middle of the night.
– The first day I woke up at four, and not two as usual.
– Perhaps a fluke?
(Day two.) Same as day one, plus when I woke up in the morning : I took two caffeine tablets, ( and my other pills. ) Plus some tea: Then nothing. I worked the day with no cat naps, nor took any other stimulants.
That night, after a two day regime : I slept through for the first time in years. I was amazed how simply it was.
– All the time I was still writing that damnable book.
I lived and breathed that world I created, and re-discovered it; through the notes I had written years earlier.
– After three months, it became had become an obsession.
During the next month I went through dialogue re-enacting it in my mind. I saw worlds that I never knew existed, and stood on clean, pristine beaches dressed only in my underwear.
– After four months : I wasn’t me anymore.
– I changed.
– I became Jessica.
Digging deeper again on the web : I found out what I had accidentally done. It seems that the folds of the brain, are ever-changing, and always re-forming. My book writing extended me into something I wasn’t.
– You can make the change, but to you.
– (Read it again.)
– You can beat this brain nonsense, by becoming someone else.
I’m not saying write a book, but you can try it as the exercise. It worked for me, but might not be your cup of tea. You have to want to do it.
– And what I’m saying.
– Is Change!
Become an Artist, try oils, try water colors. Become that obsession that burns in your mind, turn your hand to clay modelling.
– Really have a go at something new.
– Build a train set.
Do that ‘crossword’ in the newspaper, and more importantly; do it everyday. Never give up, never surrender. Get that dictionary out, and obsessively research the questions. Become a Nerd, a Geek : Become much more that you are. Form that mental image in your mind, and hold ‘them’ there.
– Try to Activate Your Brain in different areas.
– This will make a difference.
– This will make a change.
– You Will.
You won’t be you anymore, but that said; you won’t be a shitting vegetable either.
At the end of the day : It’s your choice alone: You can take the Government’s advice, and eat more fruit and veg, and do more exercise : What you will become, is a fit vegetable; sitting in an orthopaedic chair, at the end of your daze.
– Or you can learn to become someone else.
Thanks for reading, Jessica : Praise be the ORI:
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